teleological- study of ends or final causes esp. as related to the evidences of design or purpose in nature

apogee- climax of something
"the white house is considered the apogee of american achievement"

oh, i love this!

http://www.logicalfallacies.info/

que ferais-je sans elle?

looking for some sort of meaning

HOLY SHIT

i'm reading through entries from last year, and i have to say- i'm a completely different person. COMPLETELY, utterly morphed. i don't know where all of these views of mine from about a year ago came from, or where they went, but know there is not a trace of them in my body now.

i wrote about how i don't like bullshit, and i don't like meeting people, and i don't like small talk. i wrote about how i stayed in on halloween because i was tired, and how i cared about people ditching me, and how i had three beers and was drunk.

all of these things have changed.

i'm a much more common person now, with much more common attitudes, perhaps (definitely) more boring, definitely more streamlined, and definitely more typical. i know that i wouldn't attract anyone with depth these days. maybe that's what i'm looking for, though. maybe that's what i need. i don't need intensity, and i need a mind numbing.

any sort of existential crisis i once underwent has vanished. maybe this is a result of the people i've met this year, and how much i've invested myself in them, and... well... maybe the depth- the emotion- the discontent- has been sucked right out of me.

now i have entirely new moral dilemmas to grapple with.

my work ethic from last year was impressive. maybe i'll try to recapture that, since until now i completely forgot that i ever had any ability to accomplish things. i thought i'd always been like this.

GOD, I'M SO NORMAL, and i think have lost any sense i once had of reservation. is this what it feels like to have self confidence? a complete disregard for any judgment that might be passed on me? a complete nonchalance and display of emotions and attitudes? i should work on losing my confidence.

bellicose |ˈbeliˌkōs|
adjective
demonstrating aggression and willingness to fight : a group of bellicose patriots. See note at hostile .

COULD SPEND HOURS SURFING THESE-
http://www.2leep.com/news/72/1/
http://oddee.com/item_96629.aspx

symbiotic
The intimate living together of two dissimilar organisms, frequently (but not always) in a mutually beneficial relationship.

daria

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i'm going to learn how to knit

wiliam morris,
the textile blog

man oh man i barely remember how we got to sofi's crepes last night, but they were amazing.

i think i found nancy a match.

today i'm going to have a nice, sleepy, cozy, productive, reading sunday. waiting for my crab cake sandwich to warm up.

also, an ibm selectric typewriter.
i found a bunch of typeballs at work today. like, 20+!

i want a korat cat!

today, 2008:

i took a four hour nap,
but i got eight ours of sleep last night,
and i have a three page french paper due tomorrow,
that i haven't started,
and i have rehearsal at ten,
which i should memorize my lines for,
and i have my turntable!
but i need a receiver,
yesterday i ate a whole king size snicker's
because i missed michael!
me! ate! 532 calorie! candy bar!
but today i got my period, so maybe that facilitated the action,
and i cleaned the bathroom,
because it hasn't been done since we got here
there was black hair everywhere,
and i rolled it up and disposed of it
MMM!
...
i only pretended to be a martyr
because i didn't want to write my paper.
cold stone ice cream
and chicken parm for dinner
and a bagel with cream cheese for breakfast
i feel like an almost-hybernating bear,
excessive sleeping included.

i smoke too much. cough, cough, clears throat, cough :(

"getting over someone"- falling out of love with them- is never good, will never become good. what you're doing is, essentially, *forgetting* when they made you happy and what you felt. there's no way you can remember those times and move on from them

the truth is, nothing is as fulfilling as being in love with someone, in a relationship with them, in the same room as them, knowing you'll see them every day.

the other day will said this, and i think i'm going to start living by it: dependability is an underrated quality.

my room has reached an unprecedented level of disarray